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Saturday, February 20, 2010

reaLLy conFuSed.......

every morning, i woke up, help my lil bro to prepare himself for school, and sometimes had to help my mom to bring her school stuff into the car...after all of them were out on their own bussiness, i would pleasurely went back to my room, land my lazy self onto the comfy bed, talked some silly things to my cat who was lying on the couch, yawning with his paws stretched.....i looked outside through the windows. it was gloomy outside. the sun has not fully rose up. then i would thought the same thing that I've been thinking everyday for the past two months since i ended my SPM exams......




' what am i'm goin to be when i grow up???what is my future?? '


the tought keeps bugging me everyday, anytime....the closer it gets for me to receive my exam results, my worries make me a bit insane. by the time i get my results, that's the moment for me to decide what course am i goin to go for. is it gonna be medic, or is it gona be engineering. after thinkin it over and over for the past 2 months, i seriously think that it would be the best for me to make a go for the medical field.....but what's gonna happen to my love towards machines and their stuff?? looks like i'm gonna just let it go, just love it only for some crazy hobby....

it suddenly came to me that i have to be a doctor. i have to learn to save people's lives. i must......it would be a greaaat regret for me one day when i'm not able to help people as i'm just playing around machines that cannot promise the world and humanity any happiness in their lives......i suddenly thought that these machines could probably cause chaos to the world someday....as the future savior, i hold the heavy responsibility to help and save people's precious lives........


and, thankfully.. i've been able to continue my morning sleep after that with zero nightmares..........

6 comments:

bawang kecek said...

yana!!!ur post is lil bit mnyedehkan lor...
mke me think back bout my interest too....
but definitely not to jump 2 ur idea of sving people's life...
my mind is not as noble as urs i think...haha...
nyway n anythin hope we're gonna hve da best fate written 4 us...rite.?...

kadet44 said...

hahah, absolutely right....the thoughts just kept on bugging me everyday, n i'm pretty sure that i'll be able to solve it by coming out with a solid decission.....

nway, hope you too gain your's....

JaQ said...

salam.. think deeply and wisely before choosing medicine as ur path~ we learned "the road that shouldn't be taken" rite? hahaha.. sbb ada yg amik medic, then nyesal.. but, I'm not part of them~ syukur~

kadet44 said...

think too deep, then i cannot decide at all...heh.

JaQ said...

then istikhoroh la~? heh~ let Allah shows us the way~

kadet44 said...

bile istikhoroh....menjurus ke medic plok rase....tp, syg plok minat lain....